I have come to realize that life is all about baby steps, that each step we make despite fear is a step of courage. It is not easy to take the first steps towards the truth. Often the secrets, that our poisoning us, become the security that sustains us. It is ironic how we begin to hold on the things that hurt us most, because we would rather be in pain with the things we know, than risk healing in the face of the unknown. I am still taking baby steps. Life with Christ should always push us past the comfortable to the unknown to grow our faith. I do not want to be a safe Christian, I want to be a courageous woman, a woman who is an over comer. Stepping towards Him and healing takes courage but you will never regret those steps. I pray you have the courage to continue moving forward.
I explained yesterday why I chose Uncover as the name as this ministry. I think it is also so important to explain why this is a ministry, not simply a nonprofit, but a ministry.
Simply put there is no way that I can look at the last 12 years and not say that God has given me the grace to deal with my past and come on the other side healthy, whole and restored. I am not perfect (shocker to those who know me), this life is not without challenges (I am married, have 3 children and am a church planting wife), but I am no longer hindered by what was done to me.
It has been 12 years since I walked into an amazing church filled with the love of Christ. In this church I was loved on, accepted and brought to the knowledge of a God who had an infinite amount of love for me. There I realized I could not do it alone and I needed Jesus. I needed a life that could assign some semblance of meaning to the darkest parts of my past. So I committed my life to a God who has never failed me. From that point on I began to slowly unravel the years of my life that had been so guarded, protected in the unhealthiest of relationship. Slowly I began to utter all that had been done to me and subsequently all the decision I made to guarantee my own self-destruction. I owned what I needed to own and unloaded all the guilt and shame that I did not need to carry.
I can say without a doubt the only way that I have received healing from my past is to recognize that I could not do it on my own. I had to understand and learn who I was according to a loving God. You must combat the lies with the truth. This is not about religion, about what church you go to, or how good you are. This is about understanding how much you need God, that Jesus came to die for you. You are so precious to Him. This is a ministry because I am simply a message teller of all the God has done in my life and I pray that you allow Him to work in yours.
This scripture was on the of the first that assigned meaning to my suffering
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 2 Corinthians 3-4
This is a ministry because I have the privilege of comforting you, as I have been comforted. Today, I pray comfort for you.
Why the name Uncover?
As I said before this blog is the culmination of several years of wrestling with God, with assuming that this ministry could just be kept contained in a neat little package and comfort level. It could be shared in a way that was controlled and maintained, but that is not what God wanted. Uncover Ministries was birthed from a place of coming to the realization that nothing kept in secret can be healed from. Even in the word “uncover” there is vulnerability. Vulnerability is one of the greatest fears of someone who has been sexually abused. Uncover means to make visible to reveal. With uncovering a secret, with relinquishing the shame, there can be a metamorphosis. Revealing the secret brings freedom, it brings light, and it brings restoration. A change from being trapped and confined by things we could not control and to being able to live freely as the woman you were meant to be.
You will hear my talk about how God asks us to take steps of courage, that despite our fear we act in obedience and do what He asks anyway. For many of you, the first step of courage is to share the secret. The secret and shame of abuse can cripple you. Please know that you do not have to continue your life wounded, that God wants to heal you. That the shame you have is not yours to carry.
Please know that I understand how difficult it is, but I also know there is hope on the other side.
This scripture is so beautiful. I pray that it encourages you, wherever you are in your process.
Those who look to the Lord are radiant, their faces are never covered with shame. Psalm 34:5